Ghost Cat

Nobody died in my house. My house wasn’t built on any graves but yet I have a third cat I didn’t know I had. I am not sure if it is male or female but it is sweet and it comes around to play with my cats. I named it Soul. No pun intended. I plan to keep it as long as it allows me. Maybe nobody loved them when they were alive but I will love them now. I just wish Soul would top popping up in random places now. It scares the crap of me.

Dying

Im sort of glad dying inside isnt a physical thing you know. Imagine rotting from the inside smelling like a corpse someone left behind by accident in the wood. Flies would surround your body waiting to eat you once the rotting spreaded to your beautiful outside coat. Your organs would shut down or you could be a zombie. So if im sad and dying inside am I a zombie? Well I dont have the urge to eat flesh but sometimes just rip it off other people. I guess that is close enough right. Vampire would be better though.

Drowning

I cant swim. I always hate being near bodies of water. I tried really hard but I couldnt learn. I use to watch the kids play and wish I could swim like them. One day I told a friend of mine I couldnt swim. I was invited to a pool party so I went. Some people got drunk and started fighting. I was knocked in the pool. I was fighting to get out the water. Everyone watched me die.  I saw my body sink to the bottom. I tried to save my body but they slipped through my transparent hands. My body eventually floated to the top. Everyone just stared. My friend walked outside to the pool to see my body. She jumped in to pool me out. She cried and held me yelling at everyone for not helping but I was gone. I sat on the ground staring at my lifeless body and my friend eyes go dark. She went back into the house to grab a few things. She came back out with a gun and was shooting everyone in sight. She snapped. 

I watched the bodies fall around me. Blood flying all over the ground. She smiled as she murdered everyone. She put the gun in her back pocket and came over to carry my body. She put me in her car and buckled me in. I sat up front watching my friend in tears. I was all she had. Then she shot herself. 

Prayer

I woke to my mother throwing holy water all over my room. She looked scared and concerned. She said I was talking in my sleep but it wasnt my voice. She said I have been doing it all week then she saw someone standing over my body. She turned the lights on then it was gone. She decided to put crosses all over my room and pray over me. Im not sure what is going on but I think I am better off not knowing for my sanity’s sake. 

Tear me open PLEASEĀ 

I havent been the same since I woke up in the middle of the woods in an open grave. I didnt go to the hospital because I felt okay.  I went home to shower and continue my day like normal even though I felt far from it. I stood in my living room staring at the wall with a serious throbbing in my head and my throat. It felt like something was trying to get out of my body. I cried in pain scratching at my throat with blood and skin under my nails. I couldnt get it out. My aunt  kicked in my front door to find me on the floor with a knife trying to get it out.

I lie awake in the hospital with restraints. I couldnt move and my throat was bandaged up. I was crying asking what was wrong with me. The doctor says I was trying to kill myself. I told her there is something inside me and I need it out. She said she couldnt find anything. It was all in my mind.

Odd thoughts

Ive never really been a happy person or content. I struggled with depression and anxiety since I was a small child. I once broke free but the demon wouldnt let me go. It never wanted me to be free so it closed me off and every option I had. I use to hurt myself just to feel something besides the emptiness that went on for miles inside me. I havent hurt myself in months. I have needed to wear long sleeves or cover my whole body up anymore. I want to be free but the demon will reclaim me. It wont let me leave. Im not allowed to until I am no longer needed anymore. I wish I wasnt needed so I could go. The demon thinks it protects me by keeping me in this cacoon and fears of the outside world. Yet here I am wondering whether death will be the only time Ill be free. Everyone told me this all was a phase but I am an adult pass my twenties and the demon stays. This is not a phase. Now it is just survival. 

Birth

I had a bad dream I was abducted by aliens and then I woke up. I have been feeling pretty sick and the doctor thinks it might be the flu. I have be throwing up and my chest hurts a lot. My mom laughed about it because she thinks I am pregnant. I think its funny too since guys cant have kids that way. 

I cut down on beer because I am gaining a belly and no matter how much I exercise the tummy is still there. Last night, when I was asleep I saw a foot. Something kicked me from inside my stomach. I am so paranoid and so I went to the hospital. 

I am pregnant and everyone is surprised. There are news reporters always outside my house asking how did this happen. If I knew I am pretty sure I would have prevented it. 

I read to my belly every night. I dont know what it is but I am sort of excited to be a dad…..mom…..wait I dont know what it would call me. How is it suppose to get out of me with no openibg down there? This thing might come out my butt! Oh gosh no.

I have been in labor for 5 hours and the doctor came to my house to help. She was confused as to how she could get it out. She recommended just cutting the baby out. I dont like the idea of someone cutting me or of me pooping out my kid. I agreed to get the baby cut out if she promised to not say anything afterwards. She giggled with excitement and agreed.

The next day I woke up to feed the baby. I figured it is a girl so I named her Sarah. She is so adorable and blue with big giant eyes like a marble seashell. Mom altered all the baby clothes since she has tenticles and no real legs but she has arms. She also hands all her fingers but no toes. I heard a knock on the door and law enforcement demanding to take my baby. I wasnt allowing it……

I had to move away. Sarah and I are doing very well. She is homeschooled since I cant really explain why she looks like a combination of a kitty and octopus. We are liking in a very small town in Alaska. She loves the cold weather and all the snow. I think people finally stopped looking for me when I burned down the house and planted those fake bodies. We are safe for now. If Sarah’s other parent comes back I wonder can I go with them…..

Never there

I fell inlove. We were together for months and I was excited to show the world my love for him. I told him it was time to meet my family but he refused. I figured he was ashamed or not serious about marrying me. I begged and cried but he said he had a valid reason why. I asked him could I meet his family. He looked sad and concerned. After hours of trying to get him to say yes he left me an address to meet him and his parents. I was beyond excited and nervous. I dressed really pretty and made sure to get there early…..

It was a cemetery. I didnt understand but then I did. His parents were dead. I was alone at the grave yard just minutes after the sun rose. I walked about to find their graves and when I found it I sat down in front of them. I took a deep breath and introduced myself. I told then I loved their son and wanted to be with him for eternity. Then my smile left my face when he came up to me. I asked him what was wrong. He had tears running down his face. He removed the vines from the stone next to theres. HERE LIES…… I screamed. I stood up having a panic attack. It couldnt be. It was him. He was dead. He couldnt be dead. We spent months together but he died two years ago. 

I lied awake all night crying and drinking wine. I felt horrible and depressed. It all made sense why he wouldnt let our families meet or why I never been to his house. I cried myself into an uncomfortable sleep. 

I dreamed about him. Every moment played in my dreams. I sat up and realized I couldnt live myself without him. When I turned my head he was sitting in my bed. He apologized and asked me to still be with him forever. He spoke sweet words of love and affection. I waited a long time for someone like him to love me after having such a miserable life. I wasnt going to let such pure love go so I agreed. We would be together forever.

Later, my body was found in my home. I was in my bed and I looked so peaceful. I died in my sleep with a smile on my face. 

Slow Down

Sometimes I watch the world pass me by. Why is everyone in such a rush? Does anyone notice the things coming from the ground? I sit and watch the evil rise from the ground. They morph and blend in with the humans. How can you not see them? Stop! Just look please! They are coming. Nobody sees them. I do. How come I can see them? Do they know I can see them? Wait. They just spotted me…..please slow down and take a look before its too late. 

Whispers

I woke up this morning to a male’s voice. It was sort of broken up and confusing. I don’t remember exactly what the words were but the voice was clear. I sat up at 8:23am looking around for the voice and wondering how anyone could have got into my apartment. I decided to get up and start my day. I sat down and had a cup of coffee then I heard the voice again. It was like the person was standing over me. I could feel someone breathing on my neck but nobody was there…..

The day went as normal. I heard the voice a few times but it was very faint. It was 7:48pm when I decided to stop for gas for my car. After I pumped the gas I sort of sat there in a daze. Then I heard the voice clear as ever. I turned my head to see a man sitting in my car. He turned to me and pointed at the street. HELP! I turn to the street to see the same exact man walking around the street. There was a car coming. I looked to see the person was gone from my car. I looked for the man in the street and all I saw was blood. The car hit him and his body was smeared across the car. I held my mouth at disbelief…….

I lied awake in tears. I could have saved him. The man told me to save him before he died. Why didn’t I save him? I eventually cried myself to sleep.

I woke up early. I could hear a voice of a woman. I closed my eyes and it became very clear. HELP! I opened my eyes and rushed to get dress. I wasn’t going to let that happen again. As I headed towards the door a woman appeared. I looked at her and told her to show me the way so I can save her……